Acne. A condition that has plagued me for more than two years.
I am not alone in my battle with this disease as over 80% of people aged between 11 and 30 suffer from acne at some point.
And yes acne really is a chronic skin disease which involves inflammation of the sebaceous glands.
You may be expecting a 10 step skin care routine that will magically make your acne disappear. But I want to come at acne from a different angle, acceptance.
A bit of background.
I have been terrified of getting spots since my early teens but it turned out that I was actually pretty lucky and had clear skin. In fact I had clear skin right up until I came off the contraceptive pill a couple of years ago due to migraines. This is when it got bad. I got to the point where I despised my acne, my face. Acne made me believe that I was ugly, disgusting and dirty. I had severe anxiety because I thought people would be looking at my skin and thinking negatively about me! At it’s peak I didn’t even want to leave the house.
I’ve tried lots of skin care regimes, treatments from the Dr and home remedies but nothing seemed to help. Having a diagnoses of PCOS means I do understand what causes my acne. However, that also means I know that not much can actually ‘get rid’ of it other than medication. One option is the combined contraceptive pill, which I am no longer allowed to take thanks to the aforementioned migraines, or strong medicines like Roaccutane which come with a pretty long list of side effects.
Naturally, I wanted to cover the spots but the more makeup I slapped on the angrier the spots got. I finally reached breaking point, I looked in the mirror and said ‘screw this!’ and started to force myself to go bare faced and allow my skin time to heal.
I’m not going to lie, my skin has cleared up an a lot. I put that down to not worrying about it so much and my hormones naturally levelling out after 2+ years. That doesn’t mean that I don’t get breakouts or have a lot of scarring, because I do. I have just taken the decision to reclaim my life from this disease.
Acne does not define me or my worth. The fact I have whiteheads, blackheads and scarring on my skin does not mean that I am not deserving of love and respect. I am no longer scared of people seeing me without makeup, or to bare my ‘imperfections’. I am more than my physical being and I deserve to treat myself with love, care and respect.
Skin is the body’s largest organ and in trying to rid my skin of this disease I have mistreated it.. I mean, you wouldn’t put acid on your kidneys or scrub your lungs until they were raw would you?
So I am reclaiming my skin, my face and my life from Acne!
If you are currently suffering from acne or the battle scars it has left behind please try to look at it from a different perspective. I know it is difficult and I know it takes time but please just give it a go. You have so much more to see, do and offer this world than your skin!